I'LL HOLD YOU SO TIGHT IN MY HANDS AND NEVER BEAR TO LET GO

2008-06-02T18:37:00.002+08:00

MY BLOG IS DEAD....

lately many things have happened.i'm going to start going out with girlfriend. and do many stuff with her, i really need to know what happening now between her and her new school and her friends cos when i read her blog i feel very hepless i don't even know what the heck is happening i wanna ask her but what if she has forgot about it and if i bring the story back would it make her feel sad. I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!! i want her to be happy . i wanna know how she has been but i smiply have no courage to ask. i really wanna share my problems with her. because only she can understand me only she knows my secrets that many people don't why can't we just go back to the way everything was? why is life so fucked up ? why do i feel like i'm wasting my time her on earth? why does it all seem like everything is so fine when i know its not ? why don't i have the courage to talk to her heart to heart? whatever it is GIRLFRIEND IF YOU ARE READING THIS I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU WOULD BE MY ONE AND ONLY GIRLFRIEND AND THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART! i'm gonna do the quiz you asked me to do!!!

A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves
B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
stunned,what can i do?

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to get good exam results and make more friends then
enemies and go out with girlfriend more often.

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
to be a big grand affair after which i will be a broke ass.
but weddings are once in a life time so i guess its okay to spend all your money on the wedding (:

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
maybe

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
trustworthy,loving,romantic,truthful

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
as long as i know he is worth waiting for

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
just cry my lungs out and slowly get over it

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
anything and everything! life is just so unfair!

#10 Is being tagged fun ?
not really i guess

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
i'll be 24 and thats really old. maybe i'll be working by then.

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
GIRLFIREND; peiwen

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
loving, a perfect girlfriend to me? the bestest besti

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married but poor. love is greater than money

#15 What's the first thing you do every morning?
brush my teeth like duh!!!

#16 Would you give all in a relationship?
yes i would! i definetly would.

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
how would i know?

#18 What type of friends do you like?
friends like bernice and peiwen

19 What type of friends do you dislike?
liars,backstabbers,hypocrites,shitty ppl,boyfriend stealer,people who suck up to other...etc...

Tagged by: BERNICE LIM a.k.a SWEET lil GIRLFRIEND!!!

Here are the 8 lucky people whose gonna be tagged
-peiwen
-kimberly
-allyson
-alison
-nicole
-mitchell
-timothy
-scott

2007-12-25T17:30:00.000+08:00

MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!!! thanks for all the gifts , hugs , wishes , EVEN KISSES (haha)
yesterday went for family dinner with my FAMILY ate at some italian restaurant after which i came back home at arnd 9 so i used com and came online chatted with that o so dear person then like told him don't be late HAHA but he was still late (: so later went to church arnd 10+ then got ready for pagent i was super scared i would screw up everything but everyone said that that was the best night compared to all the rehersals THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE SUPPORT (: esp mummy and daddy who thought that my reading was very good because i always talk to them very UN-GLAM way so half way through the pagent that o so dear person asked if i was ok then i said yeah i guess (but i so was not ok !!! i felt like PUKING) so after the whole pagent had to go back to the canteen change and get back into church to sing for midnight so after midnight was slacking in church then i managed to see o so dear and i hugged him and then later i think he came out from father's kitchen then he saw me and asked if i was ok and i was like yeah but after that i rushed to the toilet and started pucking o so much stuff then i felt like fainting but i didn't say anything so later we went down to gardens slacked outside coffee bean for awhile then i went to 7-eleven to buy milo and uncle stanly followed behind coz he said its very dangerous to go there alone so early in the morning like at 3++ then after buying milo the guys wanted to play land at the 24hr one in gardens then i wanted to play but was too too tired so i ended up sleeping on the computer key pads?? haha then we came back home at like 4.30 then slept at 5.30 woke up at 6.15 to sing for 7am like uber tired and hard to keep my eyes open through mass UBER TIRED NOW :( my main plan was to come online and talked to o so dear but sadly he is not online FEVER IS BACK AND HAUNTING ME AGAIN!!! ):

2007-12-23T02:46:00.000+08:00

well i talked to him just now and he sounded like he doesn't mind a relationship but he still wants me to forget him... well of course i won't force him into a relationship..DUH... but seriously i love him alot he says he can be demanding ? but my whole point is no matter how demanding he gets i will still love him for who he is and i turned down so many ppl just to prove that i really do love him.if he really really really really really really x1000 wants me to forget him i will try my best but i know its gonna be hard and painful but do i look like i have a say or a choice in this? NO!!! thinking too much i guess now i can't sleep
I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH ALREADY THAT IT WILL BE TOO LATE TO FORGET YOU COZ IT WILL BE A SCARED PAIN

2007-12-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

well... i love him he USED to love me well waiting for him hoping he would give me a chance to show him how much i really love him well he is my first love and he is a very nice guy all i hope is for him to give me that long awaited chance to prove my love to him and all will be fine! miss you like hell!!

2007-12-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging for long all i want to or need to say is i have broken up with him i guess we're just not meant to be together well yeah not say i am very sad or very happy i guess i have no thoughts no words or feelings over this

2007-11-09T16:34:00.000+08:00

what the hell did i do to deserve all this man! i mean like i didn't do anything wrong and i didn't lie but why? why must she go around telling other ppl stories and making up all these kinda things i'm only 13 and she obviously doesn't know how much pain i'm going thru right now i feel no respect and no love from anyone besides a few of my friends i don't know what else she tells ppl now everyone sees me as a liar with no proof or edvidence that i'm lying i didn't do anything wrong but seems like everyone is going to believe what ever the real liar said she just wants me to lead life worse then the past because of what happened and its not doing any good to anyone because everyone believes her and i just sit in the corner and see her inflict so much pain on me like i really think i shouldn't deserve all this i didn't do anything to deserve all this YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE I HOPE YOU WILL STOP WHATEVER YOU"RE DOING do others things to hurt me that only involves only you and me don't bring other ppl into our problems if you can't slove your own problems then don't throw the problems at me i hate it and i don't want anymore problems afterall . the problems that i'm going thru now is all becoz of you and only you . I HATE YOU FOR WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING!!!!

2007-10-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

guess what that mother fucking bitch is so fucked up u wanna know the whole story? go to my links and go read bernice's blog>>>> so mood to talk about it man

2007-10-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

HEHS 3 more papers to go before i'm free from exams ... yipeee i can't wait to see girlfriend this saturday to go for a ultra shop..ping spree. so fun. :) i spent alot of time in church today with benedicta MUGGING... anyways benedicta if ur're reading this good luck for O's can't wait to go out with you after your O's ... anyways gtg continue doing my art prep work now... good byes for now.....

DUMONT<33

2007-10-05T13:35:00.000+08:00

i really miss ******* so much haha can't wait for sat?sun? i dunno which ever ..... i really miss girlfriends lots too! haha finshed my english,chinese,history,literature,chinese listening exam... exams are going to be over then i guess i'll spend some time with benedicta, ******* and girlfriend of course. some stuff are just happening so fast that it hurts so many people i wonder why things change why people change why can't it all be the same like the last time WHY??? i don't understand wish things was my way? nono not my way but just make everyone happy? that sounds better! i gotta go continue mugging ya'll .. bye for now

2007-09-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

hello!:) haha had a fun time today ...woke up for 7am mass then follwed by choir pratice left earlier coz i had to follow girlfriend for mass xD after mass went for cat class came home then went to buy macs for lunch i bought mac SPICY and it was so SPICY haha so gave it to mommy then just ate fries lols then daddy fetch me to tution at gardens then e rest went for andre's first holy communion mass after tution went to auntie carol's house for tea which was just next to my house . then my aunts and uncles were like why you so late go out with boyfriend arh? i was like what e hell no lar i was at tution... later came back home then mommy daddy mich emile and me took e four dogs to gardens went to coffee bean get a drink then we went back... COOLNESS ... i had malibu dream haha strawberries and bananas okays gtg continue mugging byees

2007-09-29T12:41:00.000+08:00

this morning got scolded frm daddy coz my room was sought of like in a mess ... and instead of studying yesterday i was doing my hair !!! so annoying forget it lar his always scolding people but still its pissing me off ;( then when i woke up i asked emile to wake up also la so at least i no need to study alone. so he say give him 15mins more i say okays, then i went to brush teeth and wash face then read newspaper. its been half an hour so i woke emile up again...after he finish brushing teeth and washing face we ate breakfast... then mummy and daddy went to NTUC and when they came back daddy called my sister brother and me then daddy gave us scolding AGAIN talk about not studying and coming home as and when we like then he say you don't like living under his rules then pack your bags and get of the house la so we all kept quiet then he say next time when mummy goes to NTUC one of us must follow her coz mummy back got problem then daddy left shoulder dislocated so cannot carry stuff....then he scold scold scold then he scold finish then we just walk off go study waste my freaking studying time lors still not getting over it!